( falling for damon was never a part of her plans, but then again, not much of anything has been going according to plan lately. parental death aside, the vampires certainly threw her for a very large, very unbelievable loop -- but there hasn't been a hint of doubt, since damon told her. he made sure she had the facts, which was helpful in the long run, followed by a much needed break from. well, everything. damon included. there was no intention of ever throwing herself back into the bloodstained, century long fire of vampires and witchcraft, but the distance helped in some other way, instead. damon, despite his faults, has been the only good feeling she's had since her parents died. maybe it's almost selfishness that drives her back into his arms, chasing after the feeling comfort and familiarity when he kisses her like she's the only person in the world, but it's predominately something else. love, if she had to put a name to it, which she doesn't, unless it's in the journal hidden in her room. she could say damon feels the same way, but she's not the best at reading him just yet -- she doesn't need to complicate things any more, regardless. it is what it is.
she's made the drive up to the old boarding house a million times now, although less so in the last few weeks due to stefan's presence. it makes her feel a little antsy whenever damon isn't by her side -- not that he's a bad guy, of course, but she imagines it has something to do with how similar she looks to katherine, the way he stares at her like he has laser vision sometimes, and could burn right through her still beating heart. occasionally there's a twinge of affection there, which is almost weirder and less preferable to the look of destruction -- i'm not katherine, she finds herself saying frequently, gazing down at her shoes and leaving through whichever door happens to be convenient at the time. damon doesn't look at her like he's expecting anything, which is always nice. he just looks like he wants her to stay the way that she is, and she's grateful for that relief among all the confusing feelings and distrust in the world. she still trusts him, definitely more than she should.
either way, the attempt at a Normal Teenage life is something elena will never stop striving towards, and she arrives at the boarding house under the intent to steal damon away to a probably boring but mostly fun date night, likely at the grill. damon's always taking her off guard, so she arrives unannounced -- though she imagines he can hear her car park in the driveway, locked with a beep as she makes her way over and knocks twice on the door.
internally, she prays stefan doesn't answer, because that'll get real awkward, real fast. )
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she's made the drive up to the old boarding house a million times now, although less so in the last few weeks due to stefan's presence. it makes her feel a little antsy whenever damon isn't by her side -- not that he's a bad guy, of course, but she imagines it has something to do with how similar she looks to katherine, the way he stares at her like he has laser vision sometimes, and could burn right through her still beating heart. occasionally there's a twinge of affection there, which is almost weirder and less preferable to the look of destruction -- i'm not katherine, she finds herself saying frequently, gazing down at her shoes and leaving through whichever door happens to be convenient at the time. damon doesn't look at her like he's expecting anything, which is always nice. he just looks like he wants her to stay the way that she is, and she's grateful for that relief among all the confusing feelings and distrust in the world. she still trusts him, definitely more than she should.
either way, the attempt at a Normal Teenage life is something elena will never stop striving towards, and she arrives at the boarding house under the intent to steal damon away to a probably boring but mostly fun date night, likely at the grill. damon's always taking her off guard, so she arrives unannounced -- though she imagines he can hear her car park in the driveway, locked with a beep as she makes her way over and knocks twice on the door.
internally, she prays stefan doesn't answer, because that'll get real awkward, real fast. )